To my soul

To the dreamy version of me..

To the girl who once promised herself  to be nothing but an achiever, and to be everything but a quitter. To the girl who used to be unstoppable, and whose energy was never all used up. To this version of me that made each day count, and lived life to its fullest. To this version of me that almost never lost control, and always stood tall after every fall. 

To the independent who relied on no one. To the warrior who fought till the very end.

I apologize.

I apologize for all the bad choices I made, and for all the wrong paths I took. I apologize for the heartbreaks and for the numerous breakdowns. I apologize for the wounds I caused, and for the scars I couldn't cure. 

I apologize for the dreams I had given up on, and for the goals I can no longer reach.

I apologize for the emptiness I had created inside of you, and for the new version of me that I had settled to.

I never wished for this to happen, but it happened anyway.

I am pleading for forgiveness. Maybe then, I'll be able to fix the shuttered pieces of you that I had broken.

Sincerely,

The broken version of you..

To the broken version of me,

To the girl who has always shined as bright as the sun, and whose eyes have sparkled like the glowing stars. To the girl who regardless how messed up she's become is still able to give, and still dares to dream.

To this version of me that has got enough courage to ask for forgiveness, and enough strength to decide on moving on.

To this version of me that in spite of the world's injustice is still trying to remain optimistic, and still trying to cling to hope.

To the independent who can still rely on no one. To the warrior who still fights till the very end.

I understand. And I forgive you.

I forgive you because you deserve the peacefulness that comes along with forgiving a regretting soul. I forgive you because none of what you are apologizing for was your fault. You've grown up. You've experienced life, and you've understood. You've understood that life is never fair, and that people are not as loving as they seem to be. You've understood that you will never have all what you are wishing for, and that life will knock you down a hundred of times before allowing you to be whatever you want to be. You've understood that life is not a fairytale.

I forgive you because it's okay to lose control, and it's okay to let go of the burden that was never yours to carry in the first place.

I forgive you because there's no shame in being broken, and there's no shame in being scarred.

You have been through a lot. Your heart is heavy, and your chest is going to explode. You have lost your way, and you are standing in the middle of nowhere. But the flame that lies within you can never die, and you still have the capability to find your way back. Just follow the ignited light of your soul; it never misguides. It will take you home.

Sincerely,

The dreamy version of you..