Has any of you thought about the blog's name? I mean haven't you wondered why I've called it breaking free? Well,I should have written this earlier but this is what I am writing about today.
In case you noticed , my previous posts were talking about the problems I've been facing since the end of my senior year at school. They were talking about how leaving school and not being able to see my teachers,my best friends and my colleagues as much as before, affected me deeply. About how meeting new people at university and adapting to them and their way of thinking was such a difficult thing for me to do. About my fear of acting myself just because others may not feel interested in my personality. As you can see , none of these is a positive thought. I can even remember that when I wrote my first post , a colleague told me that it was very depressing and he was right.This is because I decided to create that blog for some reasons ; to reveal what I really feel because writing is what I usually turn to when I feel bad and I was really depressed when I started to write. Moreover, to find something to do in my leisure time.And the most important reason , is to FREE myself. Free myself from all those negative thoughts which took over me and turned me into a different person than whom I really am.Because for me and after looking at them from a different perspective, such ideas were nothing but chains hindering me from moving on. Preventing me from enjoying the beginning of a new chapter in my life;the most important chapter on which my future depends.They were obstacles in my way towards my biggest dreams.But how can I break those chains? How can I get over those obstacles? It began with facing myself that nobody has put those ideas in my mind,I was the one who did so. Therefore,I chained myself. I am the one who opened the door to this prison and all what I had to do is just to escape.Escape by believing in my abilities. By caring more about what I think about myself and less about what people think about me .By keeping all the bitter memories aside as long as they cause me nothing but pain and keeping all the sweet ones which make me delighted in my heart.By remembering that this way of thinking won't help me overcome my fear of this new unknown chapter , it will just make this fear grow more.By remembering that the existence of some people in my life will help me to conquer the obstacles however tough they are.Above all , by believing that ALLAH made me feel that way for a specific reason, maybe because he wanted me to be more self-confident and more certain of myself.
Let me first remind you of what the previous five posts were talking about.
In case you noticed , my previous posts were talking about the problems I've been facing since the end of my senior year at school. They were talking about how leaving school and not being able to see my teachers,my best friends and my colleagues as much as before, affected me deeply. About how meeting new people at university and adapting to them and their way of thinking was such a difficult thing for me to do. About my fear of acting myself just because others may not feel interested in my personality. As you can see , none of these is a positive thought. I can even remember that when I wrote my first post , a colleague told me that it was very depressing and he was right.This is because I decided to create that blog for some reasons ; to reveal what I really feel because writing is what I usually turn to when I feel bad and I was really depressed when I started to write. Moreover, to find something to do in my leisure time.And the most important reason , is to FREE myself. Free myself from all those negative thoughts which took over me and turned me into a different person than whom I really am.Because for me and after looking at them from a different perspective, such ideas were nothing but chains hindering me from moving on. Preventing me from enjoying the beginning of a new chapter in my life;the most important chapter on which my future depends.They were obstacles in my way towards my biggest dreams.But how can I break those chains? How can I get over those obstacles? It began with facing myself that nobody has put those ideas in my mind,I was the one who did so. Therefore,I chained myself. I am the one who opened the door to this prison and all what I had to do is just to escape.Escape by believing in my abilities. By caring more about what I think about myself and less about what people think about me .By keeping all the bitter memories aside as long as they cause me nothing but pain and keeping all the sweet ones which make me delighted in my heart.By remembering that this way of thinking won't help me overcome my fear of this new unknown chapter , it will just make this fear grow more.By remembering that the existence of some people in my life will help me to conquer the obstacles however tough they are.Above all , by believing that ALLAH made me feel that way for a specific reason, maybe because he wanted me to be more self-confident and more certain of myself.
Finally, YOU can be your first enemy if you don't know how to control your thoughts and if you allow them to imprison you the same way mine did to me.You are your first enemy if you allow them to cripple you and to take away your self confidence.So,believe in yourself more and don't you ever permit the echo of your negative thoughts to take over you.
Do you get it now? Why I called it breaking free? :')
nice :D
ReplyDeleteI liked the whole article and specially the last sentence "don't ever permit the echo of your negative thoughts to take over you."
Saraa :D
DeleteI love you :D <3
Again you remind me of myself as I faced the same situation :)
ReplyDeleteGreat job (Y)
Nada 7bbty, thank you so much ^^ x
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