It's almost 2014 and people are celebrating this new year differently by reminding each others of their childhood memories and the old facebook posts. I'll be celebrating it differently as well because it would be my first time to write about how my year went. I don't know why I've decided to think about what I did in the end of the year instead of judging my actions daily,weekly or even monthly.
Anyhow, apart from all the political events, 2013 was one of the weirdest years in the nineteen years I've lived. I'd never been that confused. I'd never suffered that much from lack of self-confidence. I overthought about every single detail in my life which led me to deep depression. To cut it short, I was a mess! That's why 2013 wasn't only a weird year but an unpleasant one to me as well.
However, and regardless what I went through, I did benefit a lot. The fact that I was in such a miserable condition, made me try the only thing I hadn't done to feel better; getting close to Him again. I attempted talking to my friends, talking to my parents even ignoring everything that bothered me then, and all of these attempts were in vain. I started to work hard to please Him.I started to get closer and for every step I took towards Him, I was overwhelmed with relief and relaxation. Like magic.
I didn't stop thinking about the issues I had, but thought why He made them happen; the reason why they happened not the issues themselves. I became more sure that if I was rejected by everybody, He'd still be there to listen. He'd accept me just because I turned to him. This great thing I came up with in 2013, is the highlight of the year. Simply because it's the thing that will always give me the push I need; the thing that will always keep me moving forward.
This doesn't mean 2014 would be a perfect year. I will feel down. I'll feel frustrated and depressed, maybe hated. But at least I know the cure. I know that He'll be there to lift me up.
Anyhow, apart from all the political events, 2013 was one of the weirdest years in the nineteen years I've lived. I'd never been that confused. I'd never suffered that much from lack of self-confidence. I overthought about every single detail in my life which led me to deep depression. To cut it short, I was a mess! That's why 2013 wasn't only a weird year but an unpleasant one to me as well.
However, and regardless what I went through, I did benefit a lot. The fact that I was in such a miserable condition, made me try the only thing I hadn't done to feel better; getting close to Him again. I attempted talking to my friends, talking to my parents even ignoring everything that bothered me then, and all of these attempts were in vain. I started to work hard to please Him.I started to get closer and for every step I took towards Him, I was overwhelmed with relief and relaxation. Like magic.
I didn't stop thinking about the issues I had, but thought why He made them happen; the reason why they happened not the issues themselves. I became more sure that if I was rejected by everybody, He'd still be there to listen. He'd accept me just because I turned to him. This great thing I came up with in 2013, is the highlight of the year. Simply because it's the thing that will always give me the push I need; the thing that will always keep me moving forward.
This doesn't mean 2014 would be a perfect year. I will feel down. I'll feel frustrated and depressed, maybe hated. But at least I know the cure. I know that He'll be there to lift me up.
